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Sunday, December 2, 2007

You Are My I Love You

Where do I even begin with this blog? How do I even sum up the events of the past year of my life?

Tomorrow Cailyn turns 1 year old. I struggle to realize that a whole year has passed since first looking into her angelic eyes. 1 year ago tonight I was walking laps around the maternity ward at Iowa Methodist. Every 1-2 minutes I would ask Eric to stop and rub my back and I tried to breath through the contractions. Every contraction gave me hope that my baby girl would come and meet us soon. The labor was long, and Eric and I still say that was the most lingering night of our lives. The emotions we felt are still fresh in our memories. The anticipation we felt was enough to keep us going through the long hours at dawn. Even at those most intense moments, we were willing to do anything for our little girl.

At first glance of her innocent face, my labor pains and frustrations vanished and my heart went out to my beautiful baby girl. She was perfect with her 10 toes and 10 fingers and striking blue eyes that gazed up at me as though she never wanted to look away. My eyes glazed over as I held her and at that moment I knew I would wear my heart on my sleeve for the rest of my life.

Cailyn will turn 1 year old at 9:10am tomorrow. In the blink of an eye my baby girl has grown up. In just 1 year, Cailyn has taught me to love unconditionally, she has given me a more fulfilling life, and she has shown me what life is really about. Having a child is the most rewarding event in life. Knowing that your baby depends on you for the tiniest of needs and is comforted by your proximity fills you with the greatest of joys. Holding your baby and looking down at your own creation in an indescribable feeling. The miracle of life is beyond comprehension as is the love you feel for your own child.

Each day with Cailyn is a new adventure. She is constantly learning, discovering, and changing. I cherish every moment spent with her and can't imagine my life without her in it. I admire her innocence, unpredictability, and determination. Her sparkling personality is contagious and her teethy grins put a smile on my face daily.

Our bubbly baby girl has always been able to charm strangers everywhere we go. She captivates Eric and I everyday. She is a constant reminder of our love for eachother, our dreams coming true, and that there is still innocence left in the world.

The past few days have been spent reflecting on the past year. As a family we have exchanged hugs, kisses, and tears. Our happiness is obvious, our love has grown stronger, our bank account has grown smaller, our priorities have been changed, and we wouldn't have it any other way.

Happy 1st birthday my dear Cailyn. I love you more than words can explain. You truly are my I love you.


Here is a slideshow I made of Cailyn's first year. I know that it will bring tears to my eyes each time I watch it.

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