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Monday, February 11, 2013

Sleepless Nights, Wakeless Days

On January 21, 2013 at 10:05pm, Lauryn Elizabeth entered our lives.  Weighing in at 8 pounds 2.9 ounces, she was healthy and alert.  After 14 hours of pitocin induced labor she was put onto my chest and I fell in love instantly.  The wait was over and our baby girl was here.

She took her time coming into this world.  She had everyone fooled into expecting her to arrive early.  After weeks of no further progress towards labor the doctor gave us a choice of induction or wait it out.  We went ahead with the induction which turned out to be the best decision based on her size!  It was a long day with a pitocin drip starting at 7am.  Through the early contractions Eric and I (and our nurse!) watched "The Blind Side" and old episodes of "Full House".  Around lunch time we played Cribbage as the contractions picked up.  I would have to stop playing and breath through contractions which resulted in me missing some points! Late afternoon I agreed to an epidural.  At this point it seemed like this baby was never going to come!  Around dinner time we were at a stand still.  I was tearful and stressed.  It wasn't until around 7 or 8pm that the doctor was able to break my water and things started to progress more.  At 9:00 I was given the ok to start pushing and at 10:05 our bundle of perfection was born.

As always, I was amazed at our miracle.  Pregnancy and birth is an incredible journey and I felt so blessed to have been able to experience it once again.  The two hours following Lauryn's birth are a cloudy memory.  I hadn't slept in almost 24 hours, hadn't eaten is over 24 hours, and had been contracting and throwing up all day.  I cuddled my baby, fed her, and the nurse brought me my long awaited dinner-with dessert first!  Boston Creme Pie has never tasted so good!  I gobbled it up at 1:00am followed by spaghetti and a baked potato!

The hospital stay was short lived.  I am forever grateful to the nurses that cared for us while we were there.  They are incredible and I honestly loved our stay!  Since being home I feel as though my head is constantly in the clouds.  Lauryn has kept me up at night with her fussiness and wide eyes.  I love to see her gaze up at me but wish I saw it more during the day!  It has been an adjustment with Cailyn and Bryce.  They love her with all their hearts but they need constant reminders of gentle hands, quiet voices, and no poking, picking up, or putting blankets over Lauryn's face!  They can't cross her path without stopping to give her a kiss and I know they are eager for her to start smiling and cooing at them.

We are 3 weeks in and the older kids are adjusting better to having Lauryn here and taking up mommy's time.  I am still trying to adjust but I will get there soon (I hope!).  We take it one day at a time and even though the house is in need of some serious attention, I choose a nap during the day when Lauryn sleeps instead of scrubbing the bathroom.  Hopefully I find some ability to function again soon! 

Adjusting to three kids has been a struggle.  It is hard to split time between them all.  However, when I look at the three of them my heart overflows with love.  Eric and I have been together for 11 years now and in those 11 years the greatest gifts we have given each other are Cailyn, Bryce, and Lauryn.  Our family is complete and I can't imagine a better life! (except one with more sleep!!!)

1 comment:

Marilyn Turner said...

Once again, Ellen, you are a very insightful & thought-provoking writer. And now you have 3 little ones!