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Friday, February 6, 2015


"Circles and circles and circles again.  Circles and circles.  Got to stop spinning" ~Tori Amos "Cloud on My Tongue"

Dizzy. It's that feeling you get when you step off of a carousel or spinning amusement park ride. Your feet are planted solid on the ground and your body is still; yet the world continues to spin in circles around you. Your mind convinces your body you are still spinning until you steady yourself and regain balance. 

This bout of Influenza A has given me many dizzy spells. Standing or sitting up after lying down or even turning my head too quickly has given me a merry-go-round effect. I have to stop, close my eyes, and find my balance before continuing on.   This week has been spent mostly in bed or on the couch as I watch the world continue to spin by.  Everything continues to keep moving even when I am not.  Parent/Teacher conferences came and went, the kids celebrated their 100th day of school, and Lauryn destroyed the house as I watched on. 

I have been thankful for technology to keep me up to date on the happenings of my friends and family as well as events in town and at work.  The reconfiguration debate of the Newton schools, the budget cuts in Grinnell, and the Live Healthy Iowa updates have kept me in the know.  However, as I read through emails and posts it has occurred to me that as your life moves forward many of the events in it continue to circle back around and recur. 

5 years ago, I was teaching preschool in Newton.  Newton was facing a reconfiguration of buildings due to budget cuts.  The closing of my first school was announced and pain was scattered through the community.  5 years later, Newton is considering reconfiguring the schools once again.  I read on as my friends discuss how this could affect their children and my heart goes out to the teachers who may once again be uprooted. 

5 years ago, Newton schools were facing budget cuts (who wasn't?!).  No one knew whether their job was safe or where they would be the following year.  5 years later my current district is facing cuts.  While out sick, I missed the meeting which stated the budget reductions.  Thankfully, the majority of cuts were done through attrition. 

4 years ago, I was on a Live Healthy Iowa team logging in my workouts and weigh ins and motivating teammates to meet at the Y.  4 years later, I am connecting with friends as we workout together, share recipes, and cheer each other on. 

Life events happen and later happen again.  They circle back around days, months, and years later.  They may give you flashbacks, make you yearn for the previous time back, or make you realize you are in a better place now.  Even when you feel like your feet are planted solidly at the moment you are in, life may spiral back around giving you that fresh off a carousel feeling.  Around and around, up and down.  If you didn't learn how to react, accept, and move on from the past event, it may leave you feeling dizzy.  Through the budget cuts, changes, and new events I have worked on finding my balance so I can successfully continue on as life spirals.

Hopefully the dizziness of influenza subsides soon so I can regain my balance and move forward with the changes. 

P.S. Influenza sucks!  :-)


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